| many circumstances in my life have taken severe turns. i am speaking mostly of logistics rather than quality. location-wise, i was fully prepared to cast myself to the opposite end of the coast and live in an old factory with berkeley stoner musicians. this was set and planned, i had a plane ticket and anticipatory flutterings in my chest. i have become so skilled at telling all nervousness I feel to hush up and hold tight, I stop asking myself, "is this what i really want?" and when I do, I often find I am forcing myself in to difficult situations out of sheer thoughtlessness I mistake for bravery. so now I am spending two months in new jersey again, interning at a still-to-be-determined art-making-selling-promoting place in philadelphia, spending some time with my favorite french lovey in paris for february weeks (possibly two), just in time to run back to providence and work work work harcore-art. i am excited that my current short term plans involve the louvre and walking on a snowy jersey beaches. |